Pass!

YAY! Finally the day has come where i took my test at the dmv and passed! :) HAHAHA. & my dad just told me he's getting me a car for my birthay. I don't know what i want.. I want a nice car.. and i want it to be WHITE. or a blue color. hah, i don't know! But it has to be automatic, i don't know how to drive stick shift. I freaking hate the DMV though. It took like an hour and a half but at least i didn't have to wait like 3 hours. While i was leaving, the line was WAAAAAY longer then it was when i came.


& Fuck yeah! We're on SPRING BREAAAAAAAK! i wanna party like old times. hah, i don't party as much anymore.. how gay. I used to party so much last year but eh.. oh well! ANYWAAAAYS.. i wanna go to a bonfire or have one or at least go to the freaking beach! I need a new bikini though. Someone help me find a cute one. Damn, it's beeen hot now! Yaaaay, summers getting closer.. somewhat. & yeah, i go to intersession. sucks but i like it actually! Kinda.. something like that, hah. it's fun in a way. I met new people! hahaha. so yeah, my class is pretty chill and fun. The people in it are fun. :) I just hate waking up so early on break!!! I'd rather sleep in. DDD:<


So, i tried curling my hair today with my moms straightener and that was a bust. FAAAAAAIL! :[ I don't get it!!! HAHA. like, it's so hard for me?! :/ I try and try but it doesnt work out, someone has to teach me soooon. HAHAHA. I just leave a big dent in my hair that doesn't even turn out to be a freaking curl and i'm killing my hair for no reason TRYING to curl my damn hair. Gahhhhh!!


I hate dreams.. at least the bad ones. Nightmares i guess? They're always about my mom or my dad.. basically ALWAYS about my parents. it's either one or the other. For example like them being suicidal or killing someone.. or them being super depressed and crying loud and yelling. Or them not caring about me and yelling at me or hitting me. I don't know but shitttts scary! I even woke up at 3AM crying and i didn't want to be alone so i called HIM, the guy that's always been there and he actually listened and comforted me. EVEN though i knew deep down he's like ' Fuck! Why is this girrrl calling me at 3AM?! ' HAHA. Okay, ANYWAYSSS.. YEAH, that's how bad my dreams are. They feel and seem sooo real. I don't know but this better stop. I don't like it. I even told my mom about it and she said it's cause i eat late at night, so last night i didn't eat late and i ended up sleeping early and i guess when i'm in deep sleep, i have these dreams. I'm gonna try sleeping early again tonight and see if i have another one. D: