Ahhhh. this past week has been so hectic. x_x fuck. i'm so full of mixed emotions, my goodness! So.. today sucked. like hella. First offff, my fault for not bringing a jacket OR a damn umbrella today so i was basically soaked the beginning of the day. then, i was freezing for the rest of the day because it was so damn windy! :[ i hate the rain. period.
i've been feeling so incomplete for the past couple of days. i think people should know why by now but yeah, you get the point. there are so many things that remind me of csdknvsndk. it's beginning to get a little weird. 0.0 it's like signs. eh.. ANYWAYS! I keeep thinking of so many 'what if?' questions and there's just sooo much shit building up in my head that i can't even concentrate on my damn homework! D;< I don't get why it just ended like that, ya know? like.. so fast. I should've spoke out to him of what i needed to say friday night, i have no idea why i held back. Trust me, there are so many things that were left unsaid. :/ I betchu things wouldn't even be like this if i said what i wanted to say! I guess we weren't as 'strong' as i thought we were since our relationship just went all downhill like that. I swear i thought this was gonna last. I look at other relationships and see how much they fight, yet they STILL pull through all the bullshit/fighting and what not. Alla that makes me question myself. I shouldn't have assumed anything in the first place. I shouldn't even have believed anything that anyone told me. The only words i should've believed was the words that came from him, not anybody else. ... and now look what happened. how stupid of me. My heart literally dropped yesterday when i saw his response to what i asked him, so unexpected. I really don't get how guys get over girls in the quickness. Whatever, at least i know the truth now. Hah, funny to think that we'd get back but i guess everythings all said and done.But.. after all this, there should be no regrets though right? everything happens for a reason right? fuck. i hope so.
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